i'm back

juz wanna sae..

if you treat ppl nicely, ppl treat you the same way..

it dun make sense if you are nasty to someone and you expect the person to treat you nicely..



anyway,

i PASS my jlpt 4. my expectation was only 70 marks for it coz of being damn busy and stressed up in dec  coz of work and degree exams.. but i gt 78%... yippee...
lol.. so i'm taking JLPT 3 together with the gang.. maoling GRATS to you too...

i'm still trying to finish my reports and presentation.. deadline is this wk and next.. whereas exam is in mid apr..hope i can do well tis time round.. lol..

the weather is pretty bad .. so take care.. dun fall sick like me kk..

There are so many pictures i wanna upload and the xmas day vid at tokyo disneyland.
Argh!! no time...

Pre advance 1 is ok ..
Its all about toking..
i can understand wad Gima sensei tok about and wad the rest says..
先生はおもしろいですね。
i like the class.
It is scary when he suddenly call ur name while you are writing notes.
Yeah! he likes to do tht..
Lol... at least there is steph, sabrina, apple and wendy around.
i guess i'm still not used to do things alone..
like watching a movie, going for klaz, and etc..
but i guess many ppl are like me..
LOL!!

my mind is blank at the moment.. lol.. i dunno wad to say anymore..

but i wanna sae..


HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!

spend the time with your loved ones or your frens...

i will spend mine going for my fren's engagement wahaha.. yeah!
i dun have a bf to go with also..
CRAP!
but at least gt my frens there also..
SO OK lah..!! not tht bad..

WAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA






 

i realise that there will always be failure before success. 失敗は成功の元。
life and death is part and parcel of life where everyone have to go thru.
Secrets are meant to be keep in your heart or your hidden diary.

You can be sad for awhile but dun take too long.
Be strong to overcome all the obstacles in life.
No use crying over what had happened.
No use blaming people for your sadness.
Be strong for yourself and your loved ones who cant stop worrying abt you.

I may cry .
I may laugh
Life still goes on.
There are so many things to do.
where 24 hours 7 days a week is not enuf.

Be nice to yourself and smile now

You may blame God for not being fair to you.
Is it true?
Its how you see this world that matters
So Smile and things will get better.


 

i'm so short tempered this past wk.. 

i'm so disgusted abt certain tings..

i'm so disappointed in some tings

i'm so damn pissed abt something..

THE WORLD IS SO WADEVA..! SO DAMN FULL OF SHIT .. 

PPL POLLUTE THIS BEAUTIFUL WORLD WITH THEIR LIES AND NONSENSE.. 

AND I BEGIN TO HATE MYSELF...

今，勉強をするつもりだ。
明日テストあります。。

私は
毎日、勉強をする
毎日、遅いにねむる

どうして。。どうして。。。

日本語を勉強しないんです


時間はありません。。。！！！

だから友達ごめんね。。会わないよ。。

ラスト

島谷ひとみ新しいの歌　－雨の日は　雨の中を　風の日は　風の中を

どうぞ。。

i'm doing my report ... but decided to take a break.. 

lately, life have been totally busy for me... i'm trying to get used to the new happpenings in my life.. it seems i lost touch with jap.. i love jap.. will not tink of dropping it.. i'm nw in inter 2.. and having my mid term test tomolo.. and i did not even study.. coz i dun hav the time.. degree is taking alot of my time.. my slp.. my everything.. i miz those days where i can juz watch show after shows of NEWS.. or movies.. 

everyone seems busy with their own lifes.. (incl me)
wen was the last time i spend time with my best fren... um.. 1+ mth ago..
wen was the last time.. i tok and tok abt NEWS.. 
um.. wen was the last time.. i really did managed to watch shows without feeling guilty abt not doing my work.. 


i miss everyone.. wahaha.. i really do..

Some1 : " siti, in front of u is a table full of food tht you like.. and you dunno which one to start eating 1st.. and though u tried to eat finish all.. u can only eat so much.. and u might even vomit it all out.. leaving your stomach empty again.. gaining nthin.. "

Siti : "well.. how can i give up without even trying.. if i cant take it anymore.. i can take a break.. and continue later.. no matter how long i take.. as long as i reach the end.. isn't the same ..?"


juggling my work, degree and also jap is really hard.. and sometimes i felt like giving up.. but deep down i dun wan too.. 
no matter how much sacrifices i make.. i felt it is all worth it.. but i cant help feeling scared at the exams coming in 8 wks time.. 

i hate myself wen i'm in poly.. now tht i tink back.. did i ever did my best ...? i care more abt wad my peers tink of me.. tht is the period of time.. wen i try my best to understand.. wads expected of me.. from my family, peers and society.. it seems like.. i'm tinking too much.. no.. i'm not.. tht is the time wen i realised that i lost my path... i lost all motivation to even do my best.. everyday is like a " hey guyz.. lets go here.. skip klaz.." where is the Siti everyone noe from sec skol.. who prepared all her stuffs way in advance.. and did so well..tht her parents are so proud of her.. where everyone envy her results .. and the one coming from normal acad who managed to get into accountancy from Ngee Ann Poly.. 

now, i realise tht i'm really trying my best to attend everyklaz... listen attentively in klaz.. and take down notes.. i wanna do well.. i wanna grad.. i wan to have a degree.. if i did all tis in poly.. mayb i will already be in uni.. local uni studying .. not working and studying part time.. i realise wad a failure i have been..  if only i can turn back time.. i vow never to repeat it again..  but its all too late.. too late.. all i can do now is to look forward..